no, there really is nothing like the taste of sweet decline.
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it occurs to me that i am completely disgusted in johns infaturation with meredith
and as i write that it also occurs to me that im completely biased an unfair.
for all i know they coud have private threads going on (which is most likely) and really have gotten to know one another well.
in fact htat seems most liekly.
if it is what it seems at face value, then i remain disgusted. but i highly doubt that.
it also occurs to me that i might be to john what cody is to me
i alawys loved analogies, everything is so much clearer that wya.
on one hand there is a guy who most likely would be a hell of a lot more interested in me if i had D breasts and looked very conventionally cute.
on the other hand there is a guy who likes walking in the rain, reading ayn rand, and has as much fun as i do eating bagel bites and watching mystery science theater 3000.
it really shouldnt even be a competition.
yet it still is when i think of john.
thats frustrating, but i think ill date cody should the situation present itself.
and ill just keep loving john.
knowing full well ill never live up to his standards nor date him.
i think im fine with that.
oh well, i said it, its over and i feel fine, nothign you can say is gonna change my mind, ive waited and ive waited the longest time,
nothing like the taste of sweet decline.
